For years I have held on to bitterness and resentment about not being “invested in” on so many levels. Yes, I have gone to work trainings and sat in church, but I longed to be pushed to be better than I knew I was being. I wanted a coach again- I wanted someone to hold me accountable to achieve the goals that I set for myself. I wanted a mentor to hold me accountable to spending daily time with Jesus.
I was stuck in a “woe is me” mentality and honestly lost so many valuable years of my life WISHING someone would do the work of accountability for me. I wanted to be back in the student style of living. I wanted a syllabus, class schedule, gym time and all the things to keep me on track.
Fast-forward to a couple of months ago when I began to realize how dumb that was. Not that I wanted to be a part of a community, but that I was waiting for someone else to do it for me. I am 28 and hadn’t reached a goal I set for myself by myself. *face palm*
I started to take control. I became the mentor that I wanted in multiple areas of my life. I reached out to a few ladies a few years younger than me to do a spiritual mentorship program. Guess what?! Even though I’m the “mentor”- they daily challenge me and hold me accountable to our reading plan.
I guess all these years, I have just been waiting for me. I have been waiting to realize that I was the only one standing in my way of getting one step closer to the person I want to be. I don’t have to do this alone, but maybe God has gifted me with the leadership abilities to invite women into a journey that we can travel together.
Where are you waiting for someone to take control of your goals for you? Have you stopped to think that maybe YOU are the only one standing in your way to the life that God is calling you to live?